Sunday, April 7, 2013

Out of Control

I am a classic Type A personality, shocking I know.  I like to plan out my life.  I like to be in control of what is going on.  However, lately I am being taught that I am not in control.

Let's take Easter Sunday for instance.  I am a Southern Baptist.  Other Sundays, I may go to church with my hair kind of messy or missing make up or jewelry.  Easter Sunday however is not a day for that to occur. 
On this Easter Sunday there was a big thunderstorm as we were getting ready, I was half way through blow drying my hair when the power went out.  This meant that I was already going to church with frizz ball hair and there was nothing I could do about it.  No big deal, I just pulled it back and moved on.  We went to leave for church and the gate (we were staying out at the barn) wouldn't open...  A little bigger deal seeing as how we knew no other way to get our car out.  Well, there was a cow pasture we could get to and drive through, so we did and were a little late to church.  This was not quite what I had planned, but isn't that the case. 
None of these "challenges" stopped us from getting to church, so maybe my plans need to be blown every once in a while.  I think that was the biggest lesson I learned last Sunday.  We celebrated Christ.  We celebrated God sacrificing His only son to come to earth and die for our sins, but what I think I needed to learn last week was that He is the one in control.  I am not and that's a good thing.  His plans are far and beyond better than mine could ever be.

I was taught this even more this week through my doctors appointments for Sadie.  She is so healthy and doing so well, but since I am high-risk, I am moving to more appointments to keep a closer eye on her.  This is not what I had planned, but am so thankful that the doctors are available and being so cautious. 
I know as we enter this next season of our life that Sadie will not be on my Type A schedule and that's okay.  I am so thankful for the lessons that are causing me to slow down, stop planning so much and enjoy the days for what they are as we prepare to welcome our little one into the world.

Here's a song that was laid on my heart this week
A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in Your grace

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

My heart and my soul, I give You control
Consume me from the inside out, Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

My heart and my soul, I give You control
Consume me from the inside out, Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord, my soul cries out

My soul cries out to You
My soul cries out to You
To You, to You

My heart and my soul, I give You control
Consume me from the inside out, Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord, my soul cries out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord, my soul cries out

From the inside out
Lord, my soul cries out
From the inside out
Lord, my soul cries out

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